at last i comfirm her decision

I have being lie-ing to myself so long since the day i started loving her.
After what she say on her page i just knew that it wasnt me after all.
It was just her fairytale.
I am just lieing to myself all the time

I knew what is best to be known d.. thanks for at least letting me know now before is too late...
I promise to be a gentleman.
I promise i wont be a sore loser.

I have no idea what i am gona do with my life now.
I lost my 'everything'
I lost my direction
I lost my goal
I lost my dream
is this suicide?

or

should i continue lieing to myself that she still have a lil feeling on me..

I just always could see it from her...
I could see that she love me.
I know she have feeling for me.
I know she miss me..
I know she need me..

and is the same here..
I love her deeply...
I want her desperately...
I need her cause she is my air...
=(

baby i am sad.